(Introductory section to Part 3 – Why I Left the Church)
Even though I had decided, with Sindy, to tell the HAS that I wasn’t in support of the church anymore (and we had now done that), in spite of all the evidence that I’ve been giving you in this paper, I still could not yet fully make up my mind.
I was still not fully convinced that I was going to leave the church or that David Miscavige was an SP or that the people in the Truth Rundown were actually telling the truth.
I went through quite a bit of anguish over the next couple of weeks. All the maybes that I had been experiencing were still there. For example, when my “Dead Agent” handling began, at first, I was stymied by the data being presented to me and how it contradicted the data I had been reading on the Internet. The “Dead Agent” material did cause me to doubt, in the beginning, the claims that were being made against David Miscavige and the current church management. I could not decide what the truth really was.
I finally decided to end all this inner turmoil by doing a full sort-out and soul-search on this thing. A lot of thoughts were jumbled around in my head. I decided to sit by myself, write down all my thoughts and sort them out. I asked myself what I really thought about a lot of things.
In my opinion, as I said before, the things I am going to say will not prove to you that church management is corrupt or that David Miscavige beats his staff. For all you know, those claims may all be lies. But I think it is pretty obvious that you need to open your eyes to some very obvious outpoints and start questioning some things if you haven’t already done so. Look at these things, investigate for yourself and come to your own conclusions.
I am now going to detail the reasoning behind why I ultimately decided to leave. This was all part of my Doubt formula.
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