I’m Not Angry, Resentful or Upset

(Section 20 of Part 3 – Why I Left the Church)

I know that I am saying a lot of negative things here.  After all, this is an explanation of why I decided to leave, so logically it won’t be filled with all lovely, wonderful and complimentary things.  But I’m not upset and I’m not bitter.  Why not? I don’t know, I’m just not.  I don’t know or care whether I should be bitter or not, I just know that I’m not.

I have known many wonderful people in the Church of Scientology.  I still feel the love for them that I always felt.  Just because I make no mistake in knowing that I was betrayed by almost all of them by the fact that they did not try to get my side of the story before disconnecting from me, does not mean that I hold grudges and it does not mean that I would not be willing to communicate with them ever again.

The only thing I would require from anyone who wanted to become my friend again would be that they make the ethics change that would be needed to qualify as a friend again.  This would include seeing how they allowed themselves to be corrupted into betraying someone who was exercising his right to free speech and who deserved a fair trial.

But I do understand.  We all fell into the trap of this corruption, thinking we were doing it for the greater good.  I have been guilty of the same thing before.  That doesn’t mean that it’s okay to do that, and it doesn’t mean that someone who did that doesn’t need to make a serious restoration of their integrity.  It just means that I understand and I know that people make mistakes.  Sometimes people make really big mistakes but that doesn’t mean that they aren’t good people and it doesn’t mean they can’t change back into a true friend.

Just because I am being blunt and I’m not pulling any punches in stating my viewpoints here does not mean that I am angry or that I have any ill will to anyone in the church at all.

God knows I’ve made enough mistakes of my own over the years.

I look forward to every day in the future where I can have some of my old friends back.

Next…My “Dead Agent” Handling

2 thoughts on “I’m Not Angry, Resentful or Upset

  1. The Oracle says:

    Everyone on lines has had the opportunity what you, I, and a lot of others have seen. We did not align with the treason and betrayal. They did. Worse, they worked to unmock and discredit us! Slander us on the internet. Cause us to lose our jobs and business’. Harm Attack and Suppress our children by hitting at us. And dramatize cruelty under the mask of love for Hubbard and Mankind. Some out of the Church, are even still doing it to the others on automatic! It is best not to get angry upset or resentful because in this way they drain your attention and energy. Put that to use helping others and your self up the bridge.
    Helping others to seek and live with the truth. The ones that are down there wallowing in the treason and their motives to harm attack and suppress others will eventually turn into some benefit. Someone has to be the turkey at Thanksgiving.

  2. Ronnie Bell says:

    The ones that are down there wallowing in the treason and their motives to harm attack and suppress others will eventually turn into some benefit. Someone has to be the turkey at Thanksgiving.

    LOL!

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