(Section 20 of Part 3 – Why I Left the Church)
I know that I am saying a lot of negative things here. After all, this is an explanation of why I decided to leave, so logically it won’t be filled with all lovely, wonderful and complimentary things. But I’m not upset and I’m not bitter. Why not? I don’t know, I’m just not. I don’t know or care whether I should be bitter or not, I just know that I’m not.
I have known many wonderful people in the Church of Scientology. I still feel the love for them that I always felt. Just because I make no mistake in knowing that I was betrayed by almost all of them by the fact that they did not try to get my side of the story before disconnecting from me, does not mean that I hold grudges and it does not mean that I would not be willing to communicate with them ever again.
The only thing I would require from anyone who wanted to become my friend again would be that they make the ethics change that would be needed to qualify as a friend again. This would include seeing how they allowed themselves to be corrupted into betraying someone who was exercising his right to free speech and who deserved a fair trial.
But I do understand. We all fell into the trap of this corruption, thinking we were doing it for the greater good. I have been guilty of the same thing before. That doesn’t mean that it’s okay to do that, and it doesn’t mean that someone who did that doesn’t need to make a serious restoration of their integrity. It just means that I understand and I know that people make mistakes. Sometimes people make really big mistakes but that doesn’t mean that they aren’t good people and it doesn’t mean they can’t change back into a true friend.
Just because I am being blunt and I’m not pulling any punches in stating my viewpoints here does not mean that I am angry or that I have any ill will to anyone in the church at all.
God knows I’ve made enough mistakes of my own over the years.
I look forward to every day in the future where I can have some of my old friends back.